A New Day
The last few years I’ve obsessed with the grace that God has bestowed upon me. Today I shall begin a new obsession, seeing the grace of God bestowed upon others.
Though I have been a follower of Christ for many years prior, only a few years ago did I have a spiritual renewal that led me to become obsessed with the grace of God. Though I had already accepted the Gospel message, I had then begun to truly love the Gospel message of Jesus Christ. The thought that God would save me despite my sin has caused many grateful tears. Every since that transition I’ve made many mistakes and my love was not always apparent (if to anyone but me). Regardless, I’ve grown greatly in my walk with Christ.
However, the last few months I have not been content. I’ve tried to read my Bible as much as I should, I’ve tried to be active, and I’ve tried to pray as much as I should. Even with that, something has been missing lately. Even though I’ve been studying under some brilliant minds, I have not been satisfied with that alone.
As a result of this dissatisfaction, I began to grow rather absentminded, antisocial, and lazy. I did the bare minimum that was required of me, I let people down, and did nothing about it aside from evading the issue while living in denial.
Today, I shall renew the joy of my salvation (Psalms 51:12) but with that, add something more: reinvigorate my desire for others to find the joy of their own salvation. Yes, we should watch for our own spiritual welfare but we are also to “assemble the people—men, women and children, and the aliens living in your towns—so they can listen and learn to fear the LORD your God and follow carefully all the words of this law” (Deut. 31:21).
I have “gone with the flow” in the past and brought up Christ whenever possible, but I never intentionally seek people out so that they Gospel message might be presented to them. I’ve been aware of the task we have been called and I’ve gained a burning desire for others to know Christ. However, it has not been the same obsession that I’ve had for my own welfare. Why have I not had the same passion as Paul: “I have great sorrow and unceasing anguish in my heart. For I could wish that I myself were cursed and cut off from Christ for the sake of my brothers” (Romans 9:2-3a)?
Why oh why have I been so concerned with my welfare alone? Should not my passion for others be greater than for myself?
The last few years I’ve obsessed with the grace that God has bestowed upon me. Today I shall begin a new obsession, seeing the grace of God bestowed upon others. Join me.
